“I have always known that at last I would take this road, but yesterday I did not know that it would be today.” —Japanese Haiku

My business was born by default .

Yes default, I woke up one morning feeling like there was something huge missing in my life, I felt lost and unclear as to what my purpose in life should be – Whether I had a purpose at all.

This sort of frightened me, I had always been in a position where I was needed, able to solve problems easily and effectively, think on my feet and manage huge responsibility.

I was an above average income earner, a high achiever in my industry, did not consider myself domesticated, a hopeless cook. It’s a miracle that my children have grown and survived on the food that I fed them.

Looking back 3 years ago. I am not sure that I even realized how desperately I wanted change in my life and if unconsciously I did know, then I most certainly did not have a clue how to go about getting it. [ Or so I thought ]

Months after migrating from my home country South Africa to Australia, I reflected on how big a change I had actually undergone, settling kids and ensuring that everyone had a positive frame of mind, me included.

The frightening bit was that in the settling I realized that I did not want to go back to the life I had. I had this sense of urgency that had been awakened in me.

This all sounds like a lot of fluff , but truly I felt like I had lost a bit of my soul, not really identifying with that special core within me, not acknowledging the women I was, self care was furthest from my mind, it had become a habit to put the needs of others before my own, and at times I resented it.

Not openly, but deep down in side in the darkest most secret place.

I knew that my mindset, my life and my thoughts had to change.

In actual fact looking back at this now I felt terrified, terrified at the fact that I really did not have any idea who I was. Presenting to the world a picture of confidence, “all togetherness” strength, yet inside I was lost, frightened, unsure and seeking.

Its been a great journey, a lot of healing has taken place, a little sadness still remains, but I have more clarity of who this dynamic women within me is, a business that I love , and (yes it all came about as a result of me wanting to find myself, my purpose, to follow my dream , my passion and I have!) I am not meant to live a life of mediocrity, I have a message for the world and I am part of a bigger design – I am here to play my part in changing the world.

How will I do that?

By being ME! – I have stripped away the clay mask that became an integral part of who I was.

I bare all –I learn each day to love unconditionally, (yes, myself included) without judgment touching lives as I go.

By helping others create a life or business they truly want and desire. Those who want it!

Am I perfect? – Absolutely not! I am a marvelous work in progress. And I hope that it is in the working, defining, chipping away that I am able to share my personal experiences with you, through my business and through my blog.

Who knows how our paths might cross and for what purpose. When they do – IT will be marvelous, fabulous, awesome and great-shared experiences will come of it. ( if you’re reading this now, then it’s already happened and I thank you for being part of my journey)

Forgive me if this sounds all jumbled (no, I wont apologise ) today was another 1st for me – one where I have allowed myself to let my thoughts flow on paper without editing as I go.

I am so grateful for 1st moments.

I wrote this for you, as I sense that you may also have experienced similar thought or emotions, I ‘d love you to share them with me – If our lives are to be intertwined then we had better get to know each other better,  Please add a comment below this post and let me know what changes you have made in your life, or want to change in your life. How did you do it and what was the outcome..
(Yes.. I want to hear it all) Seriously!